My Thyroid Phase
When I was small I had hypothyroidism and I had high hunger levels with which I gained a lot of weight.
Body shaming was constant from my family, among friends, and outside strangers. It was hurting, sad, and very painful to go through that phase.
When a person’s body is not great for you then why is that a problem for you? What tickles you so much that you comment on that person’s body?
The stranger should understand that it’s hard for people like me when going through that phase to change even if they wanted to, and they go through a lot that someone could never even imagine.
It’s not that easy to lose weight in that phase. Please have some heart to understand that. It’s a phase and can be very serious to that person. Thankfully, for me, it wasn’t that serious. Strangers should show some maturity when they’re looking at a person and while making these comments.
When it comes to friends & family, strangers don’t know the reason about other person’s life but you are the closest people and who will understand better than you, closest ones? Am I right?
When I was going through this phase, my classmates commented on me and laughed at me, it doesn’t feel good at all, it made me sad and it was hard for me to make friends. I had to ask myself painful questions and shame myself. Those questions were looking at a mirror and asking myself “why are you like this? Why can’t you reduce? You’re so fat like ……., look at that face, that dumb face of yours”. Then I would just burst into tears that I shamed myself so badly. When I think about how I said those to myself I get angry that because of someone I was hurting myself.
I wanted to cut my flesh and remove it instantly when nothing worked for me. In that phase, it’s very hard to keep up, trying to reduce weight. One day, I had my breakfast, and just after 2 hours gap I started eating again (I was waiting for that ‘at least gap’ between meals like anything) because of the high hunger feelings, then my closest person said ‘you just ate now and you’re eating again?’ I didn’t know what to say at that time, every bite I ate after listening to that was very bitter. When I think about that moment, tears still roll through my eyes, It hurts me so much that she didn’t understand what I was going through.
I was able to come out of that hurtful things because of my closest ones who understood me. It feels good to have someone by your side in tough times.
Every day I took medication, a tablet that you have to take every day at any time of the day. It all began when my uncle noticed the swell in my neck region. I am grateful for the people who supported me in those times, they made me feel that everything was normal, and nothing has changed: whether it was me, or body, or anything because of which I wasn’t that unhappy. I didn’t care (thanks to my closest ones for making me feel that nothing is wrong with me) how my body looked when I went to class or anywhere. I was myself that is something very mature at my age and I am proud of that. I didn’t let anything ruin my education at that time. I was the same.
Just being normal with people who are going through this, will bring them a sense that nothing is wrong with them and they will be able to focus on something that is important to them (like academics for me).
For those who are struggling in this phase, don’t let other people’s sayings hurt you, and don't lose yourself in this process, be who you are. Nothing has changed, you can get over this phase, just focus on yourself, take medications very strictly on time, be you, care about yourself, don’t care about what others think or what others might say, and stay safe.
When the world is against you, you are the only one who can support you. Don’t forget that!
Your body loves you, your body just needs some care, you need to just love your body back then you can be what you are.
Go to a spa, enjoy some time with your body, and make jokes about how your belly is increasing :P (if that works for you!)
Spend some time with your body, let it say what it wants to say, let it ventilate the negative, and let it breathe what is optimistic. Just forget that your body is changing.
I want to conclude this by saying that it’s not easy for a person to go through that phase and you have to stay or stand for them if they are going through something mean. It means the world to them when you’re by their side. #iwillstayorstand
